Barbara looking for work

 Dream or Journey

 

Date:21/10/21	Dream State:SD
Title: Barbara looking for work
Summary: I am in Wellington at the corner of Willis and Ghuznee Streets attending an IELTS training. Jennie L is in charge (the big boss from Australia) and it is going well. During a lunch break I go down to the street for a sandwich and see Barbara M wandering the streets in her black winter coat, knocking on doors looking for work.  She is past retirement age but has a sick husband and dependent child to support.  I know she will knock on our door but I don’t think there is work for her here, or am I just wishing that I don’t have to meet up with her?  Then I see that she has met Jennie and that they are having a long conversation.  Jennie then returns upstairs to the office.  At least Barbara had a chance to talk to her and I don’t have to be the go-between.
Feelings afterwards? Relieved but slightly guilty
Connections, associations, then and now. The people are real.  Jennie I only know through web meetings but she is my ultimate boss and is an efficient no-nonsense person.  Barbara is a former headmistress of a college I worked at and we also met through painting classes.  I found her somewhat clingy and needy but also felt that she was lonely living abroad as she was with an ill husband.  Intelligent but not someone I would naturally be friends with.  I felt she was seeking to take more from me than I was getting in return but not through malice, simply through her loneliness, The night before this dream I hosted a meeting within the IELTS network and I had felt nervous about it beforehand.  It went ok.  I am also asked sometimes by people to pull strings or put in a good word for them to get a job but there is little I can do beyond giving references.  I feel bad when it is someone I really want to help and thinks deserves a chance.  This is happening with a friend now but he is someone I would definitely recommend for certain jobs, though for others he needs more qualifications.   Could any of this play out?  Sure but hopefully not with Barbara.
What would I like to know?  More clarity of message.  What should I take from this dream?
Input from others From breakout group. Someone talked of the feminine gifts that I have based on the two main female characters. Someone suggested that if I wouldn’t write a referral for Barbara, is it not the case that I wouldn’t write a referral for myself. Maybe I should just accept that B wouldn’t be a good fit in the company I’m in and not worry about it and shift the guilt I felt about that to a guilt about not doing enough to launch myself and the use of my gifts. Someone suggested that my going back up in the lift was a sign that I needed to get back to work with elevated spiritual matters.
Action plan Ask the universe
Themes and symbols. The heavy black winter coat catches my attention
Bumper sticker Be a drawbridge