2 Cakes and an ending

 

Date: 23/03/21	Dream State: SD
Title: 2 Cakes and an ending
Summary: I am in a dark hotel somewhere overseas.  It is the last day of a breathwork course and more than half the group have left early with 4 of us and the leader remaining. We have our last meditation sessions and group feedback to do but the sense is that it is already over.  Outside it is raining. I’m trying to decide if I should stay on at the hotel one more day and ask reception to reserve me a room, which I am sure they will be happy to do given the general emptiness of the place.  I also haven’t booked my flight out of the country as I didn’t know what I would feel like doing after the course.  It’s just a question of staying on a couple of extra days to rest and sightsee. I decide not to join the others and start walking in the rain to a nearby convenience store.  In the window I see some cakes and decide to buy a Danish pastry and a cream cake to take back to my hotel room.  They look quite good but often in these places they turn out to be stale and tasteless.  I’ll buy them anyway I decide as a sort of comfort food or reward. Inside the shop are two assistants, one of Asian appearance and one European. I am the only customer in the shop but before I can make my request a man barges into the shop and demands to be served first. Whatever he wants is unclear or unavailable and it seems that he will cause further disruption as a result complaining about the place.  A 3rd customer comes in and we wait patiently while the 2 assistants try to get rid of the complaining man.  The thought crosses my mind that at least one of them could be serving us.  Interestingly, the seemingly senior assistant, the European, leaves his junior colleague to do the bulk of the reasoning with the angry man. Finally, the grump leaves, I buy my cakes and wander back to the hotel in the rain. Part of me wants a lazy day and part of me is saying move on.   I woke up, write this down, go to the bathroom and return to bed to attempt a dream re-entry in a hypnagogic state. I find myself going to the hotel reception to see what they can offer me if I stay on an extra day or two.  I feel like doing an excursion to a local nature reserve in the morning and having an afternoon in the hotel spa.  The disinterested receptionist tells me that there are no tours operating at this moment and the hotel spa is closed for renovation.  She has no alternative options to suggest.
Feelings afterwards? Sad, listless, undecided and a little irritated at the lack of positive options
Connections, associations, then and now Have been in these situations at the end of courses where the buzz has all disappeared and the mood is deflating.  Have bought cakes, chocolate etc., at times as comfort food.   Could any of this play out?
What would I like to know? Does leaving on time open any doors for me that I will miss if I delay a day or two? What cycle am I not accepting as over?
Input from others
Action plan Re-entry which I did. Now, I am reflecting on all my life’s cycles to see at what point they are.  Do I have to let go of anything?
Themes and symbols Cakes, training, hotel, shop, service, lack
Bumper sticker And what if you did something completely different? (emerging from input)